Sorry for the lack of updates...

Sorry for the lack of updates and not writing Aiden’s birth story yet. Things have been so crazy. Doing all of my mommy things & spending time with Aiden takes up all of my time. He’s been having problems with his belly and has not been feeling well or very happy. We’ve already had two pediatricians (the first one sucked ass!!), have also been to a specialist, and then to the hospital twice for them to do tests. All we can do to make him happy and comfortable seems to be by holding him and sometimes that doesn’t even work. It kills me when he cries his heart out and I can’t make him feel better. I totally feel like I suck as a mom & he hates me because I can't make him feel better or make him happy. John says I'm insane for thinking it. I just don't know what to do to make him feel better and I feel so helpless. I don’t get much done until John gets home from work and we can take turns passing him back and fourth. We are still waiting to get all of the test results back and to see the doctor again. I just feel so tired and overwhelmed right now. I love my lil guy more than anything in this world. I just wish I could make him feel better and take away his pain.